Slip But Do Not Fall

I lose people I love

I feel insecure

I feel alone

I’m not helping anyone?

I am making them worse

I am a burden to the world

what is the point of living?

I am trapped

I am lost

what would it be like to die?

Depression, let’s talk about that. I think almost everyone at some point experiences depression, obviously some more serious than other. If you haven’t experienced it, you have known someone who has and it hurts. What do I do to help? Am I making I worse? Should I seek help? Aren’t these thoughts you would have if someone was going through something like maybe..cancer? Yeah, because depression is a disease just like them all. It kills you, it tires you, it eats you alive.

A person having a major depressive episode usually exhibits a very low mood, which pervades all aspects of life, and an inability to experience pleasure in activities that were formerly enjoyed. Depressed people may be preoccupied with, or ruminate over, thoughts and feelings of worthlessness, inappropriate guilt or regret, helplessness, hopelessness, and self-hatred.^[6] In severe cases, depressed people may have symptoms of psychosis. These symptoms include delusions or, less commonly, hallucinations, usually unpleasant.^[7] Other symptoms of depression include poor concentration and memory (especially in those with melancholic or psychotic features),^[8] withdrawal from social situations and activities, reduced sex drive, and thoughts of death or suicide.Insomnia is common among the depressed. In the typical pattern, a person wakes very early and cannot get back to sleep.^[9] Insomnia affects at least 80% of depressed people.^[10] Hypersomnia, or oversleeping, can also happen.^[9] Some antidepressants may also cause insomnia due to their stimulating effect.^[11]

I did not lose my Dad to suicide, I lost my Dad to depression. I lost who my father was before I even actually lost my father. What pains me is that people go through this everyday, people are pushed to the end of their pain. People are so trapped they end their lives because death is the only sense of hope they have left. You know how afraid you are of dying? When you are depressed, you welcome the idea. Now take a minute to think about that. Now take a minute to think about actually being the cause of someones depression. Take a minute for my Dad, for your friend’s friend, for your uncles mom, for that girl you read about who was bullied to death. It happens EVERYDAY people suffocate within themselves from pain.

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1-800-273-8255

Remember this number and save your life, and if not yours someone else’s. Remember for the kids you hear about everyday, but you don’t want to believe. Do not fear it, but change it. Change it for the people who suffer and change it for a better world.